I no longer get happy very often, so when I do, I try to live it up as long as it lasts and am super affectionate and loving and just outward about. Which I understand why it bothers my friends. If I only get like that around them then it’s all the time they see me. They don’t ever see the crippling depressed me who feels so shitty he literally crus in bed all day.
It’s still no excuse though to be all clingy and grossly affectionate to my friend though, but I hope they at least understand? I try to communicate that but I think I’m either ignored cause it makes them uncomfortable to talk about feelings of I’m too stupid and nervous to pro portly articulate my point . Bluh, I think if I wasn’t so sad all the time I wouldn’t be so overly affectionate and gross and creepy.