I’m really tired of not meaning anything to anyone. I do everything I can for some people and just get no feedback in return. No kind words or thanks you’s. That’s all I want is for some godddamn acknowledgement, that’s not too much to ask.
I just hate knowing that the person I care about so much for doesn’t give any shit about me or at least can’t be bothered to.
Ugh I’m probably just a super shitty person. Like no one would honestly want to get close to me and it’s asking way to much for any form of affection. I just want to know my friends care that I mean something, anything to them. That I’m not just being used because I buy them food and stuff and am a free ride. But that’s all I’m good for I guess . Just a piece of shit people deal with and pretend to befriend to get stuff out of. God I just want someone to tell me that they really care. Sit me down, look me in the eyes, maybe hold my hand and tell me that I mean something, anything to them. But I know that’s asking way too much as it is. Maybe just a nice hug and a real “I care about you”. Some sign or show of affection and appreciation. I just want to be validated . Tell me I’m not human garbage that deserves to actually kill himself. Who doesn’t need to just finish the job . To not have to try again and actually succeed